If you can't already tell from the title, I'm still sick. I finally went to the doctor on Monday and found out that I was really a lot sicker than I thought. If you thought a sinus infection and an ear infection weren't enough, let's through bronchitis into the mix. I'm not by any means a good patient. I over do it all the time and don't take time to rest when I'm not feeling well, but this scared me a bit. My doctor told me that if I didn't stay down and rest, my bronchitis would turn to pneumonia and I would have be hospitalized. That was enough for me to plant myself in bed for the last 2 days.
I am feeling better today, just not enough to go to work. I'm afraid that if I jump back into everything 100% that I will land my butt in the hospital. NO THANKS! Lucky for me, things are super slow at the office and my bosses and co-workers are very understanding. As I sit here typing I realize that I'm not 20 years old anymore. My body is not as resilient as it used to be and I need to take better care of myself. As I'm sure most of your understand, I try so hard to balance my life. Between 3 kids, a husband, the house, work, friends and relatives it seems as if I'm constantly being pulled in too many directions and I'm not good at saying no, or just leaving the dishes or laundry for tomorrow. I'm also not good at asking for help when I feel overwhelmed. Somehow I think that it is going to make me less of a mother, wife or employee and what I forget is that asking for help is a very human thing to do. And last time I checked I'm human. We as people like to be needed, helpful and nurturing. So maybe this is my lesson. I usually need a big wake up call to remind me to slow down and enjoy what's in front of me. And lastly maybe I should ask my friends and family for help. I know that I would be there for them in a second if they asked and they have. And as many times as they offered to help, I've turned them down thinking that makes me less of a woman. It doesn't and deep inside I know that.
So this is a lesson in humility. I am not super mom, super wife or super employee. I am Jennifer and I am human just like everyone else. I guess I should start acting accordingly.