Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Not Better Yet

If you can't already tell from the title, I'm still sick. I finally went to the doctor on Monday and found out that I was really a lot sicker than I thought. If you thought a sinus infection and an ear infection weren't enough, let's through bronchitis into the mix. I'm not by any means a good patient. I over do it all the time and don't take time to rest when I'm not feeling well, but this scared me a bit. My doctor told me that if I didn't stay down and rest, my bronchitis would turn to pneumonia and I would have be hospitalized. That was enough for me to plant myself in bed for the last 2 days.

I am feeling better today, just not enough to go to work. I'm afraid that if I jump back into everything 100% that I will land my butt in the hospital. NO THANKS! Lucky for me, things are super slow at the office and my bosses and co-workers are very understanding. As I sit here typing I realize that I'm not 20 years old anymore. My body is not as resilient as it used to be and I need to take better care of myself. As I'm sure most of your understand, I try so hard to balance my life. Between 3 kids, a husband, the house, work, friends and relatives it seems as if I'm constantly being pulled in too many directions and I'm not good at saying no, or just leaving the dishes or laundry for tomorrow. I'm also not good at asking for help when I feel overwhelmed. Somehow I think that it is going to make me less of a mother, wife or employee and what I forget is that asking for help is a very human thing to do. And last time I checked I'm human. We as people like to be needed, helpful and nurturing. So maybe this is my lesson. I usually need a big wake up call to remind me to slow down and enjoy what's in front of me. And lastly maybe I should ask my friends and family for help. I know that I would be there for them in a second if they asked and they have. And as many times as they offered to help, I've turned them down thinking that makes me less of a woman. It doesn't and deep inside I know that.

So this is a lesson in humility. I am not super mom, super wife or super employee. I am Jennifer and I am human just like everyone else. I guess I should start acting accordingly.

6 comments:

Becky :) said...

Ok, hello bestest friend over here. If you need help let me know, I got your back.
Although I'm gonna quit lugging that vacuum to work if you aren't coming in. :-)

I love ya, now get back in bed and don't lift a finger. Let me know if you need ANYTHING!!!! Love ya

JEN said...

I'm going, I'm going. I'm really not liking my bed anymore. Maybe I'll switch to the couch. Just can't wait to get my life back!

Davisix said...

Oh...I'm so sorry you're sick. :( 4 out of 6 of us are too. Not as far along as you though. We seem to be getting a little better and pray the same for you. Now quit blogging and get some rest! :) Ang

JEN said...

Thanks Ang. I appreciate you commenting regularly. Hope your group gets well soon. Luckily everyone else here is healthy. Thank God! I'm in no position to take care of anyone.

Becky :) said...

Of course I had to include your cute little fuzzy blue slippers in the picture. I couldn't crop them out. :-) You'll have to take that picture off of my post and put it on your blog.

DysFUNctional Mom said...

I hope you're feeling 100% better soon!
xoxoxo